On the day i feel the most relax

Alhamdulillah it's Friday.. Hari untuk berehat lebih sedikit..tapi kerja ade je yang menanti..Hah, nak membebel tentan a few incidents with students recently. Lately ni cepat rasa nak marah je..lebih2 lagi kat student..but i think it's not all about hormones. First incident last week, 2 c students are talking while im giving lecture in front.Mula2 rasa nak abaikan je tapi panas hati lah jugak. Terus berhenti lecture dan sound them directly. I u are discussing something, u can go out of my class now. Dont disturb me. I know u are clever enough, u dont need to attend my class. So please go out if u want, i dont mind at all.Punye la marah tu. Aku kalau marah tak kire dah. Tetiba lancar plak speaking omputih. Kalo ngajar macam gagap2 x jumpa term yg sesuai. Kuang3. Second incident yang lagi teruk happened few days ago. A female student updated her fb status saying im teaching all wrong! boleh? tak ke rasa nak lempang berkali2..-_- tapi aku jenis tak tahu nak marah cmne..memang kecewa weh. Semalam kelas sejam utk active learning tapi dah terbuang sebab aku brainwash budak tu cukup2. I dont know how is your way of thinking look like? U keep me wonder. Memang aku ade tersalah masa bagi lecture tapi aku dah betulkan. Perlu ke nak update kat fb? who u think i am? your friend? your enemy? memang malang ah hidup kamu sebab cari pasal dengan orang yang garang nih. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Aku tak suka garang2 dalam kelas..malas la nak marah2..semua dah besar kan..dah tahun 4. Bukan budak hingusan. Tapi jangan nak rasa pandai sangat, jangan sekali kali rasa lagi pandai dari orang yg ajar kita. Walau kita pandai camana pun, tetap kena rasa diri tak pandai..baru senang nak terima ilmu. Panjang berjela aku ceramah. Ni aku malas nak marah ni. Kalau marah sume point keluar.Kalau pandai pun aku tak heran dengan attiude macam tu. Aku serius tak heran lah. Orang yang berjaya dia tak ada masa nak cari salah orang lain, dia sibuk cari kekurangan dia je..betulkan apa yang patut. Ini equation maths pun fail ada hati nak komen2 pensyarah plak..-_- Kalau dilayan hati yang kecewa memang aku tak mau ngajar dah. Tapi think positive aje la..i'll take it as a lesson and challenge.For me to be better than this. My superior said, we should master the subject so that there's no space for others to find our flaws. I agreed. Apa2 aku aku report je kat mentor focus group aku..Prof. G. Somebody i just know few months but like years already. He's from UM, left UM because of the sickness of the academic field. Haha yang ni tak mau elaborate lebih. But he taught us a lot. How to become a better lecturer, how to overcome student's attitude. Masa zaman aku jadi student, kami memang behave dalam kelas..tak pernah aku dengar lecturer merungut pasal student bising atau kurang ajar, memang tidak pernah terjadi. Kami hormat pensyarah kami tak kira sikit mana pun dapat faham apa yang dia ajar. Memang tak de pernah terlintas nak kritik lah, rather than find some friends to discuss if we dont understand the subject. Bukankah mudah. Campus life is not as in school. U were spoon-fed. It's diff in univ, u got to survive no matter what. Lecturer delivers, depends on u how u picked it up and use it for your own good. Go find your additional reference. But students here are too used referring to only lecture notes which are too brief and not sufficient. For core subjects, reference books are much needed! Core subject ok..jangan main2. To be continued...